Murders to Music: Crime Scene to Music Scene (Streamline Events and Entertainment)
Come on a ride along with a Veteran Homicide Detective as the twists and turns of the job suddenly end his career and nearly his life; discover how something wonderful is born out of the Darkness. Embark on the journey from helping people on their worst days, to bringing life, excitement and smiles on their best days.
Murders to Music: Crime Scene to Music Scene (Streamline Events and Entertainment)
100 Episodes Strong: Murder, Music and the Moments that Matter!
A kid in a uniform at thirteen, a detective staring into the dark for decades, and a musician learning how to feel again—this milestone episode threads those lives together and sets the tone for what comes next. We open the vault on why Murders to Music exists: to turn pain into purpose, to trade glossy “Instagram life” for brass-tacks truth, and to leave every listener with something useful they can carry into the week.
I walk through the messy origin story—trying to merge event work with a message about healing—and the moment I split the brand to serve people, not profit. You’ll hear what “radical honesty” sounds like on-mic: survivors confronting familial abuse, an ATF agent who infiltrated the Hells Angels, my daughter’s fight to reclaim her identity, and my own reckoning with pride, PTSD, and faith that failed me until I let it hold me. We break down the show’s formats—fast “Snapshots” that deliver a lesson in under ten minutes and “Typical Tuesdays” that reveal how real investigations unfold—always anchoring true crime to mental health, resilience, and recovery.
There’s a confession too: I almost quit at one year. Then downloads exploded overnight and listener letters started stacking up—stories of surgeries survived, grief translated into action, and long drives spent finally naming the damage. We talk numbers without worshiping them, including the stubborn choice to keep ads scarce and aligned, even if that means the ledger says seventy-nine cents. The payoff is elsewhere: in cities and countries we never expected to reach, in guests who bring candor instead of polish, and in a community that holds each other up when the floor feels thin.
If you’re new here, expect human stories told straight, faith that doesn’t dodge hard questions, and music that reminds us joy is portable. If you’ve been with us since the trailer days, thank you for every share, review, and nudge that kept this project alive. Subscribe, pass this one to someone who needs steadier footing, and tell me what story we should tackle next—your request might shape the next hundred episodes.
Gift For You!!! Murders to Music will be releasing "SNAPSHOTS" periodcally to keep you entertained throughout the week! Snapshots will be short, concise bonus episodes containing funny stories, tid bits of brilliance and magical moments!!! Give them a listen and keep up on the tea!
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So, what is it like to be in a uniform from the age of thirteen years old? A police uniform? What is it like to help investigate your first death at the age of 13 years old? What does that do to the brain? Should a 13-year-old be exposed to a dead body that's been laying there for months? I don't know. Well, I do know. What is it like to continue living in a uniform for another 33 years? I don't know. Well I do. I'm gonna tell you all about it. And what happens when your career's ended? All of a sudden life is good, you're coded, things are awesome, you're the go-to. If there's something good going on, you're in the middle of it. You've got TV shows made about you and your cases. What happens when all that goes away overnight? I don't know. Well, I do, I'm gonna tell you about it. So, and how does this deal with music? Sometimes the best things in our life are born out of darkness. What is going on, everybody? How's everybody doing today? Thank you guys so much for coming back to the channel again. So, this is officially the very first episode of the Murders to Music podcast. Last week I was able to kick off a trailer which got some great reviews and some great feedback. So I really, really appreciate that. So, today I want to introduce myself to you. Where did I come from? How did I end up to where I am? Uh, where did I grow up? How did I grow up? It's gonna be a little story time. I'll tell you guys some stories along the way, and then towards the end of this, if you stick around, I'll tell you something I'm struggling with, and maybe you guys can help me. Maybe you've been there before, maybe you're there right now, and I'll tell you something I'm struggling with, specifically with this show. So here we are, guys. My name is Aaron. Well, what is going on, Murderers to Music fans? Can you believe this is the 100th episode? Man, I am so excited for this, and I'm so excited you guys are listening. You know, tonight is going to be such a special show. We are gonna kind of bounce all over the place. I want to talk about the last year and a half, the last 99 episodes leading up to this one. I want to talk about how this podcast started. I want to talk about where we are in numbers, where we're going in the future. This is an absolute celebration. So, you guys, thank you guys so much for sticking around. We're gonna touch base with some of the most popular episodes. We're gonna talk about some of the most popular guests, the biggest moments that I've had on the show, the biggest lessons learned. We're gonna hear from several guests that have sent in fan mail and letters and want their messages to be heard by everybody out there. So, guys, stick around. Thank you guys so much for being a part of the Murders to Music podcast, the 100th episode, and keeping this thing real. Thank you, thank you, thank you. So, at first, you know, life's not about statistics, right? We can make statistics say whatever we want, but I want to go through some of the numbers with you guys because I think it's super, super cool for a guy who started off not knowing what he was doing and not understanding what this podcast was ever going to be like and not even having a real direction, just knowing that I wanted to put something out that was gonna help others, I'm pretty excited about where we've came. So, as you guys know, first of all, this is the 100th episode of the Murders to Music podcast. We are currently on 14 different streaming sites. You can go 14 different places, including a little bit on YouTube for the earlier shows. Over the last year and a half, and this show started, it released its first episode on May 30th, 31st, June 1st, something like that of 2024. So just over a year. In that time, we've had 28 different guests on the show, we have had 24.7,000 downloads, which means by the time the show is aired, we will have crossed the 25,000 download threshold, which is gonna be kind of cool. We are in 1,983 different cities spread around 58 different countries of the world, and all of this, let's talk hours and numbers, right? I'll tell you how much I've made on this podcast here in a second. You're gonna be super impressed, and you guys are gonna tell everybody, but um, you had no idea you met somebody or you know somebody that's made so much money on a podcast. But I've spent about 400 hours of recording and editing over the last year and a half. That is a ton of time to get paid a whopping 79 cents. That's what I've made. 79 cents. It has been an absolute goal of mine to not dive into the monetization of this podcast. I think it's super important that I get my message out there. You know, God gave me pain for a purpose, which we're gonna touch on that here in just a second. But he gave me pain for a purpose, and I don't believe that it's right to jump into this monetization. I know when I'm listening to a podcast, I don't want to hear add after add after add and skip 30 seconds, skip 30 seconds till we get back to the show. I want the show to be about the meat and potatoes. I want to come into it, I want to be captivated by it, I want to stick through it. I can't wait to get back to it and hit play and pick up where I left off. And I think that's really hard to do when you throw a bunch of ads in there. So it wasn't until recently, about two weeks ago, that I finally found an ad that I thought lined up with my brand. It lined up with death and mental health and recovery and resiliency. So I bought into that ad. And uh by buying into it means I agreed to let it play on my show because I thought it was worth it. And so far I've made 79 cents, and that's kind of what I expect my paychecks to look like. So maybe when we get together, I'll use some other money to buy us a coffee. You know, recently I've picked up a lot of new listeners, and I think it's important to understand what the topics are, that the Murders to Music podcast is, and I think what has made it so popular out there. The first thing that I think has made it popular is the fact that everything I do is transparent, vulnerable, honest, and real. And with those character traits in mind, I also want everything I put out to be educational, entertaining, or provide value to you. I want you to be able to come into this podcast from any walk of life and be able to get something from it, take something away from it. You know, I am a firm believer that we are put in circumstances in life that we can learn from them, good and bad, and that we can help others along the way. The problem. The problem I have found is that people oftentimes are not willing to talk about the dirty stuff. They're not willing to let the dirty truth out and really hear, you know, the stuff underneath that fake facade or that fake smile that we all wear because we know that we're being judged by the people around us. But that fake Facebook life or that Instagram life only presenting the best of what we're involved in, there's really no learning to be done there. It's a show, and we're all guilty of it. Every single person that is listening to this, myself included, is guilty of putting on that show. And I think what has made this podcast so popular is that we cut the crap, we get down to the brass tacks, whether it's me or my guests or anybody else involved in this, we tell the hard truth. We talk about the failures and the lessons in life. If everything we do in life is perfect and there's no room for improvement, then there's no lessons being learned. We learn our best lessons when we stumble and fall and bruise our knees and get up and stumble and fall again. And I think that is what everybody has shared that has come on this show. And again and again and again, that is the listener feedback that we get is that this show is honest, true, vulnerable, and real. I have cried on this show, my guests have cried on this show, and crying doesn't make the show good, it makes it real. It's okay to have emotion. And for so many years in law enforcement and as a first responder and a homicide and child abuse detective, my nervous system was shut down and I wouldn't cry. I wouldn't feel emotions, I wouldn't allow myself to feel because that was a state of vulnerability and I didn't want to go there. Now, after hundreds of hours of therapy and sessions, now if the wind changes directions, I start crying. I'm like a bubbling mess, and I don't even know what to do with all these nerves that I've got. They're like, but I have them and they're good. And I let those things out on this because I think it's important to understand that underneath all that Facebook and Instagram, we are real human beings with real problems, and we all face the same trials, tribulations, and struggles every single day. That is why this show is popular. At the end of the day, we're all worried about how we're paying the bills, how we're getting the kids to practice, the struggles of our job, our religion, our faith, our ups and our downs, our highs and our lows. Those are the things that we think about every single day. And we listen to these podcasts in route and to and from and to and fro. And what makes it popular is it's real. And it wouldn't be real without you guys, the listeners. Thank you so much for continuing to listen and share this with your friends and pass it along. It's just an amazing thank you, thank you, thank you. I'm talking super fast and I can feel myself doing that. And I'm doing it because I'm excited. I'm super excited for this show. And uh, you know, so bear with me. I'm sorry, but I got a lot of energy going on over here. So, one of the things I want to talk about tonight is I want to talk about how this show started. I think it's uh something that I have never dove into in the last 100 episodes. So here's how I want it to go. You know, about a year and a half ago, two years ago, I was talking to my therapist and she made a comment and she said, You know, Aaron, God doesn't give us our pain without a purpose. And it's what we do with that pain is what is going to impact us and those around us the most. And I thought it was very, very wise, and that resonated with me. She said a couple things over the last few years that have really resonated. That was one of them. The other one was that um I had a bad attitude, my attitude sucked, and I was getting in my own way. But that's a different conversation for a different day, and that's actually on the podcast. So I got an episode all about it. But when she told me that my pain was for a purpose, I started thinking about it. And I realized that all those years in law enforcement and all the struggles that got me to where I was sitting on that leather chair to discuss my inner deepest secrets. I realized that I had been working with people my entire career that were just as broken as I was. And they were just as scared to talk about it as I was. The only difference between me and them is I was sitting in that chair talking about it, and a lot of them wouldn't even face the idea that they had a problem. But from the outside looking in, it was pretty obvious. It was pretty obvious that there were issues going on, and we can see that through drugs or affairs or alcohol abuse or depression or family fights or divorce or whatever it may be. We don't have those joyous things in our life unless there's something percolating under the surface that is destroying us and crumbling our inner soul. And I learned this through therapy because, you know, I was that same guy that struggled with all those things. And it wasn't until uh somebody sat me down and I was nearly dead, and I started to have to reel this back and understand that, you know, it's okay to have these problems. We all have them, no matter what walk of life you're in. And you don't always have to put on the smile, or you don't always have to numb the pain with something, or you don't have to pretend that or or believe, I guess, that you're the only one with these feelings because it's not true. Everybody else has them as well. So having that in mind, I decided that I needed to do something with this. And I thought, you know, in the world of podcast and social media, that might be the best medium to put this out. So a man without a plan is where I was, and but I knew enough about technology because I've been doing music my whole life and playing in bands and audio, video, and all that. So I started putting together basically a podcast setup and still not understanding truly what my direction was going to be. And here was the confusion I had. I own a company, and my company is called Streamline Events and Entertainment. And Streamline Events and Entertainment is a company that I developed after leaving law enforcement, and I do weddings, live music, DJ, lighting, and sound production for corporate events and weddings. The reason that is important is that I went from helping people on their worst days to helping them on their best days, from being a part of their worst memories to being a part of their brightest memories that is going to affect them and their esteemed family, friends, and guests for the rest of their life. And that is why I opened up the company. So originally, when I started this podcast, I wanted to share my pain for a purpose, but I also wanted to further my business. So as I am deciding, okay, how can I incorporate my pain for a purpose and from darkness to light with the streamline events and entertainment, wrap all of that up into one bundle, push it out there in such a way where I can serve dual purpose. I can tell my story, but I could also benefit my business. So in the beginning, that is what I'm trying to do. And I'm thinking about it and I'm on the fence. And in that first episode, you just heard the clip of my very first episode. And at the end of that episode, I talk about this very problem that I'm having because I'm not 100% sure which direction to go. Well, it wasn't very long that I decided I'm foregoing the business aspect of this because the heart of the matter, what I truly want to do, my passion is to help people. My passion is to help people at a level that maybe somebody else can't, or maybe nobody else is willing to. And I really didn't end up caring about the business side of this. I really wanted to focus on the people side. So I dismissed and I bifurcated, separated out the business part of it, and really focused on the mental health portion of this. So over the last year, we've talked about love, we've talked about loss, family, faith, failures, wins, losses, tears, trials, tribulations. We've done it with honesty. We've talked about abuse, my own personal abuse of being molested, abuse of the other people that have been on this show. We've had some amazing people on this show talking about their stories just to tell other people that they're not alone. Pride and not the kind with the rainbow flags. Pride in yourself when your head is so big you think you are so important that you destroy the world around you and you destroy yourself. Music. We've talked about being blessed on this show and all the twists and turns that are vulnerable and real that people don't want to talk about. That is what has made this show what it is today. And I am so thankful that I got away from the dollars and cents of the business promotion and started focusing on the people promotion. And that is what is got my heart filled with so much joy as I sit here recording this 100th episode. I talk about the 100th episode because there has been times, especially in the last, I don't know, four or five months that I've thought about quitting this podcast, you know? And I've never even told my wife this, who's going to be listening to this show, but I've thought about quitting it because I'm like, you know, maybe I've run out of things to say, or maybe I've run out of things to talk about or lessons to give. You know, I when I started out, I was early on in my stages of healing coming out of law enforcement and the PTSD and the therapy lessons and all of that. And I, you know, I thought, well, maybe I've told all the, you know, the stories, the lessons, and I really don't have anything else to offer. But then I just kept praying about it. And it seemed like every week something else would come up that would just make sense in that moment. And I figured out if it was something I was struggling with, it's probably something somebody else is struggling with, or at least considering. And I just had to trust that this podcast was going to make it to the right people at the right time and get in front of the right ears to help move the needle of humanity and just make this world a little bit better place. You know, I think that if we all shared a little bit more love and a little bit less hate and backstabbing and fear biting and all the negativity and toxicity in this world, if we would just love a little bit more and try to help each other out and hold the door open and make a nice kind word or a nice gesture to people, could you imagine what this world would be like? And that is my motivation for doing this. So I sit down for that first episode, I plug everything in, I do a bunch of test runs. I don't know what I'm doing. I've watched the YouTube videos, you know what I mean? And uh they tell you what to do. I've watched 10,000 YouTube videos that talk about the do's and don'ts of podcasting and find your niche and narrow down and how to use social media and how to, you know, get the right keywords in there and all that stuff. And I sat down and I put some of that to use, but I'm really, you know what? I said I've been a person for a long time, and I've sat down in interview rooms and interviewed thousands of people and had them all tell me their stories, and I've been able to connect with them on a personal level. I'm just gonna use my skill sets and I'm gonna let this podcast grow as it as it will. And that is exactly what I did. And I'm so glad that I didn't quit during those times. I'm so glad that I can sit here with you and I can look forward to the future. And, you know, I'm starting to get people that are giving me requests for shows, which is cool because sitting down and trying to think of something to share that is educational, entertaining, or provides value every single week can be a struggle. It's not like there's people knocking down my door to be on the show. I'm having to go out and cold call and call people and talk to people, complete strangers. Maybe other YouTube videos I've seen where I reach out to people like Jay Dobbins. Jay Dobbins was an ATF agent who infiltrated the Hells Angels and he went deep undercover for two years, ended up indicting 50 plus Hells Angels members. Well, I saw an episode of him on TV and I saw an episode of him on YouTube. So I'm like, let me see if Jay Dobbins will be on the show. So you do the research, you reach out to him, you find him. I don't know this guy from Adam. We're both cops, I know that. Reach out to him, and then you risk getting rejected, you know. But uh sometimes you get rejected, sometimes they say absolutely, and they come onto your show. So, you know, but nobody's really beating down my door to be on it. So trying to find material that I think is worthy of putting out every single week without missing a week. I have not missed a week since I started this show, and I've put out multiple episodes a week a lot of the times. And I think that's important because I want my listeners to have to be able to expect a show every Thursday. I want there to be consistency so I can build the brand, build the listeners, and give them what they keep coming back for. So thank you guys so much for continuing to follow along on my journey. You guys have heard me come from brokenhearted, downtrodden, depressed, not suicidal, but definitely on the low end of things. And you've watched me make this transformation to the brighter side of life. And I think it has been so cool to share my journey with you guys every week and to share the intimacy and the details of therapy. So I hope that it's helping other people out there. And I'm gonna play some, I'm gonna play some recordings here in a minute from some of the different listeners that have sent me recordings and emails and text messages over the you know last year and a half or so. And I think it's evident that it's helping people and reaching them where they need to be. But I'm sure there's so many other stories out there that would benefit the show. And you know, if anybody listening to this would like to be on the show, or if you have a story you want to talk about or something you want to share with me, please reach out to me. My email is murders to music at gmail.com. That's murders the number two music at gmail.com. And uh you guys can also send me fan mail at whatever uh listening site you're going through, streaming site you're going through. But shoot me an email, you can find me on Instagram, murders to music, you can DM me there, and I would love to have you be a part of this conversation. So, as I was saying, this show started sharing that pain for a purpose and kind of bringing you along on my journey and teaching some life lessons. But then I'm talking to a good buddy of mine and I'm telling them some cop story, you know, and it's like a 10-minute funny. And uh he's like, Aaron, he's like, you know, he's like, I would totally listen to that on your show. I think it would be super great. So that's where I introduced snapshots. Snapshots on the show are 10 minutes or less, funny stories, something I just want to get out there, could be educational, could just be funny, could be a message that I want to convey. And but they're 10 minutes or less, they're pretty quick. They usually happen in the middle of the week. That way you can catch a little bit and you can come back on Thursdays when I put out the big full episodes. The other thing that we do is typical Tuesdays. A typical Tuesday episode is some crazy case that I worked that you think, man, that would never happen in my town, yet it does. And we tell the story start to finish and peek behind the curtain as to what was really going on during that investigation. So I tell some of those, I tell some case reviews, but I make sure those case reviews aren't just war stories. I want to make sure they have a purpose and they can tie back to a mental health or they can tie back to some lesson that can be carried away by the listener. No matter what walk of life you're in, you can get something from that. Because we can all go to TV and watch true crime all day long, and we carry nothing away other than, yeah, there's 45 minutes, I'll never get back. I don't want my podcast to be that way. When you live this, I want you to get something out of it every single time. I mentioned earlier that there's been 28 different guests on this show. I've had family and friends and strangers. They've told their stories of loss, they've told their stories of losing their children. I mean, I interviewed my my buddy Beale, who was uh another police officer from LAPD, episode 16, and it's called Faith to Failures and the Truth No Parent Could Imagine. In this episode, my buddy Beal talks about losing his two children, literally in his arms, out of the blue, out of nowhere, his little girl dies. He gives her CPR and he talks about that journey. Then he talks about a year and a half or two years later, his son goes to the doctor with a very uh benign cold or uh ailment and dies on the hospital room floor. And he talks about the loss of those children, but then wondering what's going to happen to his other children he has at home. What is going on? What's killing his kids? And his family turned on him and thought that they were abusing their kids and called DHS. This guy's an active cop. And his family turned on him, and he got on here and told this entire story, told about the fear that he had of losing his other kids, spoke about the desire he had every single day driving to work as a police officer to kill himself by driving into the river. These are real stories that people have come on and shared. And I gotta say thanks to the guests because you guys have made the show absolutely wonderful. You know, some of the biggest moments that I've had on the show was with my daughter, Hattie, episode number 13, and she talks about her journey through mental health of her own. Talks about, you know, a fall from grace within the gymnastics community, a loss of identity turning to suicidal, talks about being molested by a local teacher who got off scot-free because the investigation was botched on many different levels, and uh they put the teacher right back into the school district. She talks about that and how it affected her. Ashley in episode number 19. It's the weight of Ashley's secret. Ashley, she was a victim of mine in a sex abuse case. When Ashley came to me in her mid-20s, she had been molested by her father since the age of about three years old. Ashley carried the weight of that secret and thousands of acts of rape and molestation between three years old and about 20 years old. Ashley knew that her sister was also likely being molested by her father. At 16 years old, her father got her pregnant on a date that they went to. Father took her to the coast to celebrate her 16th birthday, made her pretend that she was his girlfriend, got her pregnant, and then took her and paid cash for the abortion. That investigation came to me when Ashley finally had the courage as a broken adult to come to me and the police department and make the report. We investigated that case, ultimately found her father guilty. Ashley is one of the strongest, if not the strongest victim that I have ever dealt with. And I use the term victim loosely in this case because Ashley is a survivor. Ashley has more passion, grit, determination than almost anybody I have ever met. She absolutely took this bull by the horns and then stood up to defend and fight for other people who are in the same situation as her because it's unfortunate. But this situation that Ashley found herself in is out there all the time. It's happening in your own neighborhood. That is a typical Tuesday. Ashley knows this because of the statistics, because she is a statistic. She knows that this is happening and she is now advocating for other victims of familial sexual abuse, which I think is pretty, pretty awesome. You know, Jay Dobbins, I mentioned him a minute ago, episode number 53. He infiltrated the Hells Angels. And to infiltrate them is one thing, to send 50 something of them to jail is another, but then to have to live your life, knowing that you could be hunted down and killed at any moment. He had his house burned down, his life was threatened, and his department walked away from him and did not support him. They didn't give him the backstop or protection that he needed to save his own life. He's still living out there looking over his shoulder. Jay Dobbins was an amazing man who shared his story on my show. He told the story of faith, told the story of law enforcement, told the story about getting shot in the line of duty. He was involved in two shootings and shot twice by the time he was on the job for one year. Spoke about how it affected his mental health. Spoke about how it affected his family and his relationship with his wife and his kids. He shared all of that in honest, brutal truth, which I thought was pretty amazing. Faith on the front lines, episode number 26, another huge moment for the show. We're going to talk about faith. I'm, you know, this is not a, and my wife told me last night, you always say. This, uh, but it's not a faith-based show, but I don't steer away from it, I don't even ride the line. I am a Christian, and I think that has kept me sane and safe and alive and given me some faith to believe in my entire career. Even when I have walked away, even when I have turned my back to God and to religion and ran far the other direction. There's always been that thread. And the moment you turn around, he was right there, willing to take me back and hold me in his arms like his son. And I think that is super important. And on episode number 26, Faith on the Front Lines, I have myself, a local pastor who was part of the Mars Hill movement. If you guys have heard of that, a megachurch based out of Seattle, spread across the United States, that imploded when the pastor Mark Driscoll went rogue. And one of the pastors for that church was on. And I had another police officer partner of mine who is also into biblical studies. He is a combat veteran and a police officer. And we had a three-way conversation, but we also brought guests in to ask questions about what does faith look like? Not only the dirty truth in law enforcement, but also the truth in bringing faith into your workplace or your corporate environment or any situation that you're in. We can be Christians on Sunday, and the minute we go to work on Monday, we are, you know, a completely different person. We don't talk about it. And we spoke about the idea that do the people in the workplace know that you are a Christian? Do they sense a difference in you? Or are you, you know, are you two completely different people? And and why do we shy away from that? Because we shy away because we're gonna we fear of being judged. I mean, that's pretty obvious. It's uh that's common sense information. But we talk about the that juxtaposition that we're in. We talk about that colliding of the worlds and what it's really like, and I think it was a it was a pretty awesome episode. So um that was episode number 26. Some of my biggest moments on the show over the last hundred episodes was revealing my pride, you know, and realizing that my pride was so bad and I thought so highly of myself that I couldn't get out of my own way. And we all, I believe, everybody struggles with pride to some extent. But I also believe that it's very hard for us to admit it or see it sometimes. And for me, I didn't see it for years. I just thought I was the shit. I thought I was, you know, the the best thing since sliced bread. And that's just the way it was. I solved everything I touched. I was God's gift to everything. And, you know, I was just life. You're lucky to have me in your world, kind of an attitude. And it wasn't until I really broke down the problems I was having and looked at them at a granular level to realize that the common thread is that my head is so freaking big and that pride was standing in my way. I was on dateline, don't you know? I solved this case, I did that. I'm a cop, you know, and I show up and I got my cape on. I'm I'm I trip over my cape every time I walk around the room. That's how I thought about myself. And it wasn't until I identified it, admitted it, repented from it, spoke about it on this show that I was able to slowly start to free myself. And when you spend 45 years loading the pride, you know, into the backpack, it takes a long time to unpack. And I'm sure I'm still struggling with it. I'm sure there's still a blind spot there that I'm working with. Um, but man, I at least I know about it now and I'm willing to talk about it. So, and then surrendering that, surrendering all this noise that I have in my head, and surrendering the pride and the ego, and just realizing that there's something bigger and better than me that is willing to help me out and take care of me if I just let it and I had to get out of my own way. And that was for me one of the biggest revelations on this show. Over the last year, year and a half, the biggest turning point for the show was when at exactly one year old, like literally to the day I go to bed that night, I'm like, God, it's a please. Again, a feeling of quitting, right? I'm at a year, I feel like I'm running out of material, I don't even know if I should still be doing this. And I lay in bed and I'm like, God, just please let this show get in front of the right ears at the right time. Please let it get out wherever you want to use this and this message. And if there's people that I need to help, if if somebody's not gonna pull the trigger that's to the gun that's in their mouth because they hear my message about when I was in that same situation and that there is resiliency and there's a world after, you know, getting up off your knees, it please just let them hear it. And the next morning I woke up and I checked the downloads, and I had been getting about maybe 30 downloads a day, maybe 150, 200 a week, something like that. And I woke up that morning and I had 90 plus downloads by 7 a.m. And I'm like, holy buckets! About 10 o'clock in the morning, I go into the bathroom at work, I check my messages, probably TMI for you, but that's the truth. And it just came out because I didn't think about filtering it, so I apologize. Anyway, so I checked it and I'm at 170 or something downloads. By the end of that night, I'm over a thousand. The next day is 20 something hundred, you know, 2500, something like that. And I'm like, holy bucket, it just it like exploded overnight, and the podcast continued to grow and grow, and that was just an indicator that I need to continue doing what I'm doing. And there has been ebbs and flows, but um, it's been a pretty awesome journey for me. And that was my biggest surprise of this show, is right when I was at the closest moment to quitting, calling it done, because one year is a nice final point to put a period on this, it exploded, which was pretty cool. Podcast has given me the opportunity to get onto other podcasts like Small Town Dicks. If you haven't seen it or listened to it, you should go listen to it. Small Town Dicks. It's an amazing show. Small Town Dicks is four people. Yardley Smith, who is the voice of Lisa Simpson, she hosts the show, and there's three cops, two cops out of uh Small Town USA, and then a cold case criminal forensic investigator out of California who helped solve the cold case murder. And the premise behind the show is what they do is they will bring in detectives and police officers from around the world and let them tell their stories about cases they've investigated, the twists and turns, the ins and the outs. And then those four rock stars will ask questions that dig deeper than surface level. Because they're law enforcement related or law enforcement, they know what to ask. They know how to dig. Well, Aaron, what about the DNA? Did it come? And they ask those questions, and it just makes for an amazing show. Small Town Dicks. It's on all your streaming platforms. Resiliency First, that podcast. That is a podcast with Susan Farron. It's part of the First Responder Resiliency Program out of California. The First Responder Resiliency Program is a program that looks at first responders and the effects of PTSD through a scientific approach. What does the effects of the job do on our mental health, on our breathing? How is rest important? How is our nervous system important? Our parasympathetic, our sympathetic nervous system. What is fight, flight, and freeze? And what does it mean if we're stuck there? And how do we unstuck ourselves from those? What about yoga? It talks about yoga. It talks about uh painting and coloring and slowing your life down and becoming a hawk instead of a hummingbird. It talks about all of those things. And I got to go onto that podcast, share my story. She shared her story as how she started the program. You guys get an opportunity to check it out. Hey Chaplin, another one I was involved in. It's a chaplain from Kansas City Police Department who talks about the ups and downs, ins and outs of chaplaincy in a law enforcement program and organization. Uh upcoming, I'll be going on a show called Going In Blind. Going in blind, I had this guest on my show. He is 25 years old now. He is completely blind from shooting himself in the head in an attempt to commit suicide. And he didn't kill himself, but he did lose all his vision and his hearing. But he talks about overcoming that, overcoming alcoholism, becoming a award-winning computer programmer that has never written code before in his life until he was blind. And now he writes code and programs for people with disabilities so they can do all the same things on the computer that the rest of the world can. He talks about his skydiving, his whitewater rafting that he does, his whitewater kayaking, his downhill skiing, his snowboarding, all of that stuff he does while he's blind, his mountain climbing. He tells you all the ins and outs and how he does it, why he does it, and it's a great story of recovery. And I get to go be on his podcast, going in blind very soon. That is going to be awesome. I want to spend just a couple of minutes listening to what some of the listeners have had to say about this show. And it's not about a, you know, thank you, Aaron, for what you're doing. It's more how the show has impacted them. So let's spend just a couple minutes listening to this and let's hear from them as to what the impact has been of the Murders to Music podcast.
SPEAKER_03:Well, I am not a former police officer. I worked in law enforcement for a short time. I am a survivor of trauma and truly appreciate the candid moments you share. I'm on episode 40, so I'm catching up. I first found you on small town diggs. From there I've been binging your episodes. I want you to know that through going through three brain surgeries in three years neck, shoulder, left hip replacement, three back surgeries, and a bone graft put in for my bridge of my nose just since 2015. Oh, and I died April 25th, 2021 and got to come back. I can relate to so many things you talk about with struggling to show your disability, although it can't be seen, and losing your identity. Keep sharing your personal growth and vulnerabilities because it touches all who hear you. Music is something that is important to me as well. It's helped me in many ways through dark times in my life. I am a 52-year-old woman in Idaho who loves your show. Thank you for all you talk about and share.
SPEAKER_02:Just listen to the podcast Haunted by the Past. It was an excellent podcast. I think the third one I've heard so far. I hope you know that it took incredible courage to put yourself back into that environment. Props to you for showing up when you needed to. I hope you are in a much better place now.
SPEAKER_03:Dear Aaron, I just wanted to let you know that I discovered your podcast through the Small Town Dicks podcast. I am really enjoying your stories and genuinely appreciate vulnerability and willingness to share. Thanks.
SPEAKER_04:Hey Aaron, I discovered your podcast from listening to Small Town Dicks. Since I learned of your podcast, I've listened to every episode and I'm now current. Thanks for the content. I was wondering if you could possibly do an episode that near and dear to my heart. I love to hear you talk about the four Lakewood officers that were gunned down in a coffee shop. One of those officers, Ronnie Owens, was my friend and neighbor. I understand if you can't. Just thought I'd ask. Also, I love the music portion of your show. Also, as I'm a bass player. Once again, thanks for the content and have a great day.
SPEAKER_02:Aaron, first, let me start by saying thank you. You've been able to verbalize feelings and emotions that in many cases I couldn't even put into words. You've done an incredible job of humanizing PTSD and the struggles so many of us face when leaving the lifestyle and career we once lived. I recently took a trip to pick up my son from college in California, and I listened to your podcast for the better part of 12 hours. It made me acutely aware of the emotional damage I've done. Yes, I get to unpack that now. I also want to say that while I know you don't feel like a hero, I can assure you that to the families whose loved ones' cases you've solved, you are. I understand you were there on their worst days and they may never want to see you again. But you were the one who stared into the dark and battled when they couldn't. I know this firsthand because you solved a case for my partner's family. She holds you in the highest regard and often speaks about your humanity.
SPEAKER_00:Thank you guys so much. You guys, as we look forward to the future of this show, I want you to know that right now I plan on doing at least another 100 episodes, right? So if you guys want to be a part of that conversation, you know, a gentleman called in and wanted to hear about an officer-involved shooting where some officers got killed in Lakewood, Washington back about 2010. So I'm going to dig into that. I'm going to find some inside sources and do a podcast on that. But if there is something you guys want to hear about, if there is a topic, if there is a special guest you want me to interview, if you want to be on the show, if you think you have a story to tell or you have something that can contribute to this or a life lesson learned that you want to share with others, or a story of resiliency or redemption or mental health or whatever it may be, please, please, please reach out to me. Murders to music at gmail.com, the number two, or Instagram, murders to music, shoot me a DM. Either way, I want to have you guys be a part of this conversation. You know, I've been honest and vulnerable and shared with you. Sometimes finding that motivation and the material for the next show to make it worthy of my brand is really, really hard. So I could totally use all the help that I can get from you guys. I want you guys to be here with me every single step of the way. I don't care if it's your first time listening or you've listened to every hundred episodes. Thank you guys so much. You know, I want to give a shout out to some of the longtime listeners, Scott, uh, my local Scott. Thank you, brother. Darcy, man, I hope your life is going good. I hope that things are well with your family and the new job. I mean, we just spoke earlier today and messaged back and forth about your future, dude. I wish you the best of luck out there. Carrie in Alaska, thank you so much for sharing this with your family. And I hope that the moments have helped. Um, I hope that some of the things that I've spoken about have helped you and your family. And uh, yeah, it's I yeah, I just hope that there's been some good there. Charlie, I wish you the best of luck with the situation with your kid, and I want you to be able to share some of these messages and share some of these stories of recovery and resiliency with him that way. Uh, you know, I I know it's scary. I I don't know. I could imagine it's scary to wonder if your child is going to take their own life or not. And it just every day you wake up wondering if the child's gonna wake up next to you or in the next room over. And I I am sorry you're having to deal with that, but I thank you for being honest and vulnerable with me and telling me your situation, your story. And I hope that this podcast can both help you and your family through some of this stuff, right? We don't always know why things are happening. We know that they're happening, but we don't know why. And I hope that some of the lessons learned um can help you guys through this. Coming up in the future, I'm gonna have some great guests on here. I've got an awesome guy coming on. Como salva, everybody, it's your boy DJ Rhett. You know, he's an awesome DJ out of Louisiana. You guys can find him on the Instagrams at DJ Rhett. He is a comedian, he is a fun guy, not like the mushrooms. He is just uh an overall good dude. Yeah, he does a lot of funny videos, he does some lip-syncing stuff. He's gonna be on here soon. Check him out. We've got tons of good guests coming up lined up for the next year. So uh it's gonna be an exciting show. I'm gonna continue down my path of recovery resiliency. I'm gonna talk more about the bright side of life and what it looks like on the other side and overcoming those trials and tribulations that the world throws at us. Uh, you know, so that is what the next year or so is gonna look like. As we wrap this show up, I want to play just a couple of quick snippets from when this show was first launching. I've told you about my confusion. I've told you about not knowing if it was gonna be a show about streamline or music or DJing or helping people. And I think that's gonna be pretty obvious when I play these little outclips, right? So, a couple of bloopers, a couple of little blooper reels, and you guys, thank you so much for listening. This has been a murders to music 100 episode podcast. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you very much. Thank you. Well, hey, what's going on? It's Aaron with Streamline Entertainments and also Murders to Music. Behind the scenes of the podcast. So that sounded very uh news anchory. Sorry, I won't do that again. Anyway, hey Well, hey, it's Aaron with Streamline Events and Entertainment. And welcome to the Murders to Music podcast. Now I'm gonna tell a lot of people this, but our show is gonna be releasing soon. So when it does, you're gonna want to be a part of this. Stand by for the release date, check out the trailer, check out the clips and the outtakes. You're gonna want to be a part of this from the beginning. Murder to music, behind the scenes, crime scene to music scene. Come along and ride along. Let's go. Well, hey, this is Aaron with Streamlining Events and Entertainment and Well, ladies and gentlemen, that wraps it up. That is our 100th episode. Thank you guys so much for sticking around. Please share this with your family and friends and loved ones and co-workers. And maybe this stuff doesn't apply to you, but you know somebody that it does. Ladies and gentlemen, thank you guys so much. Much love from me to you. Ladies and gentlemen, that is a murders to music podcast.
